Loser's Flight - title suggested by Jonathan (Job) Silverthorn, my one and only beta reader - is a short novel by myself and Victoria Russell.
Science Fiction, Dystopian, Teen Fiction, Leaving Home and Coming of Age story.
Here's a pre-release taster.
Loser's Flight
Victoria Russell & Chris Northern
There
were things the Linesman Automatic knew about. Movement along the
power lines, negotiating and examining pylons, connections,
insulation, the lines themselves. It had eyes of a sort, saw more
than it knew about. Over the lines a great blue and white mass
replete with irrelevant movement, sometimes light and sometimes dark
and neither state mattered. Below, attached to the foundations of the
pylons, the solid earth that held the structure firm. On top of the
earth a green shifting body that required no attention so long as it
was short and did not interfere with pylons or lines.
The
Linesman Automatic moved over the lines and paid attention to what
was needful to its purpose. The rest, it saw but did not know or
understand or care. That which has no consequence is ignored as an
irrelevance.
One of
these things it saw, but did not know, was a girl who walked alone.
In the terms of her society, she was a Loser.
She was
alone, and her name was Susa.
I'd
determined to follow the lines for no other reason than Automatics
maintained them and maybe, just maybe I would find at their other end
another place that was also maintained by Automatics. Maybe there I
would find shelter, food, people and a new place to be.
I was a
Loser, self-selected for colonization, and I did not then know that
colonist was just another word for outcast. Home was behind me now
and I could never return, on pain of death.
I'd seen
it happen twice in my sixteen years. Desperate starving exiles who
returned, pleading for food and shelter and life... only to find
sudden death from a rare gun in the hands of a Security Guard acting
under the orders of an Administration Officer.
On this
bright clear day, the sun pleasantly warming my skin, I watched an
Automatic as it ran along the lines, checking all was well along
every millimeter. I wondered if it knew as little about me as I knew
about it. Did it know I was a human girl? Did it know I was a Loser,
alone, a colonist rejected by my society, cut loose to make my own
way in the world? I doubted it even noticed me, or could care if it
did.
All I knew
about it, to be fair, was that it was an Automatic and that it
checked power lines for flaws. I knew no more than that, and only
knew that much because I'd once seen a pylon repaired by an entirely
different Automatic. It had been a big yellow and black vehicle,
lights flashing to draw attention to its dangerous bulk. The business
end had arms and tools, like most Automatics. I'd watched the noisy,
hovering machine cut free a section of the pylon, pull a new length
from its own body, cut it to length and weld it in place before it
moved back in the air to briefly survey the job and then moved on.
Maybe back to wherever it came from, maybe to fix another rusting
pylon. Never to be seen again, by me at least.
That
Automatic had to come from somewhere. There were many Automatics
around Home, busy at their tasks, but none like that one, not that I
knew of. Wherever it came from would likely have at least some
people, and Automatics that supplied food, water, shelter, all the
comforts of home for those who lived there.
The
problem would be finding such a place. And maybe persuading the
people to take me in. Maybe they would. Maybe they would test me
first. I shied away from my doubts.
I should
have felt a lot of things as I walked away from home the day after my
sixteenth birthday. Dread. Loss. Shame. Despair. Fear. All of those
and more. I was sixteen and alone and exiled now into a wilderness
that I knew nothing about.
I was a
Loser. I'd failed. I should feel like a failure. I hadn't won a
single competition in my last year before adulthood, a year of
serious competition in various events. According to everything I'd
been taught since earliest childhood, I was useless. I couldn't
shoot, or fire a bow, or fence, or run or jump or climb or... well,
the list was endless. I couldn't do any of them well enough to win a
single event. Not once in fifty-two events over the last year, the
year that counted, the year that decided if I could remain a citizen
of Home or not.
It had
turned out to be not.
No one
came with me. No one had the same birthday I did. When I ran out of
time I ran out of time alone. I was popular enough, I supposed; my
friends had tried to throw competitions to give me a chance to win
but there were always others who did not, and even friends were
reluctant. It might be their one chance to win a place themselves.
Once won, secure, they no longer competed. It was a big risk to throw
an event. Everyone needed to win at something. There was always the
risk you would throw the event that turned out to be your one real
chance. In any case, nothing had made any difference for me.
I walked
away from the buildings of Home. Underfoot a broad flat path of grass
that cut through ruined buildings of the Unmaintained region. Away
from Home, leaving behind the safety of the place where Automatics
maintained everything. Here, in the unmaintained region,
constructions of all sorts decayed, crumbled, rusted and fell apart.
I had a
backpack with food, a tent, some basic equipment. I carried water but
had explored around Home well enough to know water wouldn't be an
immediate problem.
And I had
a plan.
The
decayed buildings fell away behind me and the swathe of grasses
broadened out to be bordered by forests. The pylons marched on, and
so did I. Following them to wherever they might lead.
I walked
easy, the morning warm, night a distant concern. I felt optimistic.
Enthused. Excited.
And
scared. But I was busy lying to myself about that.
Home had
food, shelter, warmth, comfort, safety. Everything everyone needed,
all supplied by Automatics, according to some unknown scheme of their
own. The factories produced parts. That's what they were and that's
what they were called. Parts. Bits of machinery. Function and purpose
mysterious and unknown. And they were shipped out by Automatics, just
as the food was shipped in.
But only
enough food for so many. Home could not support more.
Hence the
games. The competitions to see who would remain... and who would have
to go out into the world alone and survive or die without everything
they and I had become accustomed to.
Hot water.
Clean sheets. A bed of blissful comfort. Furniture. Warmth. Clothes.
Everything. All maintained and provided by Automatics. For two
thousand six hundred people. And not one more than that. One more
person meant less for everyone and eventually not enough for anyone,
until everyone was hungry all the time. The competitions solved that.
The Administrators enforced it ruthlessly. In the past there had been
growth beyond the Automatics’ supply quotas and then rebellion
followed sure as day followed night. A conflict of attrition until
numbers were reduced through casualties and stability was
re-established.
The
competitions were better than that, at least. Only those unable to
compete successfully were turned out to survive or die without
Automatics to supply their needs.
So now I
had to find a way to supply everything I needed for myself, at least
everything I needed to survive. Alone.
I began to
think about it, even as I tried not to panic about it.
Food. I
carried some. Not much. Mostly dried, mostly survival rations. A
week, maybe. Ten days to find a source of food or begin to go hungry.
Water. I carried some and could get more from any river or stream. I
had a small kit to test the water for pollutants so that would not be
an immediate problem. Shelter. I carried a tent, a sleep-bag. It
would do for now but I couldn't live the rest of my life in a tent.
Heat. I carried a small flame maker, but I knew it used compressed
gas and wouldn't last forever. I'd need something to burn. Wood. I'd
need to cut it. I had a small hand axe. A knife.
I sighed
when I realized I'd run out of assets.
I had
clothes, I reminded myself. Good stout boots. Cold weather gear that
was lightweight and both thermal and waterproof.
I wouldn't
freeze.
Nothing I
had would last forever. None of it would be replaced. The few
sanitary items I had were the last I'd ever see, and their impending
loss prayed on my mind almost as much as food.
I might be
a Loser but I would find a new home. I would find a way to survive
until I did. I was young, strong, and confident. So I told myself,
listing these qualities among my assets.
The pylons
marched on and I moved from one to another, a hundred meters between
them. The woods closed in on each side but a broad corridor was clear
and easy to travel. Doubtless the Automatics held the forest back to
keep the pylons safe. I was glad of it. It made for easy walking
through waist-high grasses.
I looked
back, once.
Home
already seemed far away. The sprawl of the unmaintained areas with
Home almost lost to sight, tucked away in one corner by the lake that
stretched beyond. If I'd been able to secure a boat I might have gone
that way instead. But Administration would not release a boat to a
Loser.
I looked
back only once, then. There was no going back and no sense looking
back with longing for all I would soon miss, all I already did miss.
I had to go on.
I walked
three kilometers or so. I couldn't help wondering how far I'd have to
go before the pylons led me somewhere. More than three kilometers,
anyway.
Bored, I
fantasized about the place I would find.
And
hopeful, trying to ease my fears, I made it a good place.
The last
thing I expected to see was someone else ahead of me. Two hundred
meters away, the figure stood and waved.
I stopped
and stared.
It was too
far to make out details. Two hundred meters up a gentle slope. There
was nothing to obscure my view, and apart from a few high clouds it
was a clear day, warm but pleasantly cooler in cloud shadow. A breeze
moved the grasses in waves and the leaves of the trees moved to join
in a chorus of sighs. The figure stooped to heft a pack and sling it
to his back. There was something in the way he moved that gave him
away.
“Jeth,”
I whispered, part excited and relieved, but equally dispirited by his
recklessness. “You fool.”
There was
nothing for it but to go forward. Nowhere else to go, the meeting now
inevitable. What else would I do? Run from him? There was no need for
that. He was no threat to me. Only to himself.
Jeth
waited for me but as I came close, apparently couldn't resist the
urge to help me bridge the gap between us.
Fair
skinned with green eyes, the folds under his eyes made him look like
he was always squinting at something he wasn't quite sure of. In this
case it was probably true; he couldn't be sure what reception I would
offer.
He smiled
easily as he came close, though. He opened his mouth, doubtless to
say something cheerfully disarming, but I cut him off.
“Jeth,”
I made an effort to keep the relief I felt out of my voice. “You
damn fool. What are you doing here?”
I could
see him visibly change tack. “Keeping you company, Susa.” He
turned to display his pack. “What else could you think?
He was
right. It was obvious, but it needed saying. He was putting himself
at risk needlessly. Or at least prematurely. “Your birthday isn't
for two months. That's eight chances to win a place thrown away.
Why?!”
“I
didn't like the idea of you going alone,” Jeth said, not looking at
me. “And let's face it,” he gestured to himself in a sweep of one
arm, and then he met my gaze squarely, “my chances of winning an
event are fairly remote.”
He looked
like me. Lean and fit, healthy, his muscles toned. But I knew what he
meant. He was like me. A little below average height and weight. Not
quite strong enough or agile enough to win a wrestling or any other
hand-to-hand event. Reflexes not fast enough to fence... the list
went on. We had trained in the same groups, faced each other in
practice and competition. We were both well below average. Almost
good enough at some things, but just not quite there, no matter how
hard we focused or trained or specialized. We were both rejects of
our own culture. Losers.
“You
might have gotten lucky,” I said, feeling bad for him.
“I don't
believe in luck,” he said, again not looking at me, his attention
skidding over the terrain around us.
Neither
did I. I believed in training hard, being prepared, being better than
the competition so that I could win. But I hadn't won. My beliefs
were ashes, burned by harsh reality.
“I'm
going to miss showers,” I said, not knowing why. Maybe just to be
saying something.
“Home
can't be the only place with showers,” he said. “The food,
medicines, all of it has to come from somewhere. Home can't be the
only place in the world where Automatics keep things going. Think
about it,” he grinned, “there must be loads of places.”
I didn't
want to dampen his enthusiasm, but I wasn't feeling optimistic and he
still had a chance to go back and win a place for himself. “So why
do exiles ever come back, if there are loads of places?”
His face
went stiff, grim, maybe annoyed. He certainly sounded annoyed when he
spoke. “Maybe some colonists just don't go far enough.”
“So we
just keep looking until we find somewhere?”
He nodded
stiffly. “We do.”
He turned
and pointed along the lines of pylons marching off into the distance
through the woodland and over a hill in the distance. “Your idea to
follow the pylons is a good one,” he said.
I'd told
my friends what my plan was. There was no reason not to.
“It's
part of the reason I decided to come with you,” he glanced at me
with a shrug. “Maybe you will have other good ideas.”
When this
one turns bad, I thought. Well, maybe it wouldn't, and if it did then
maybe I would think of something else.
I just
hoped I thought of the right thing before it was too late. Before,
desperate and hungry and cold, I decided to head Home and beg them
not to kill me, or maybe to just kill me quickly and be done. The
second exile I'd seen return had done that. Defeated. Just wanting it
to be over. And they'd killed her.
“We
should go,” he said, gaze flitting briefly back toward Home, an
anxious expression resting momentarily on his young features.
I wondered
why but didn't feel like questioning it now. I was, I admitted to
myself, glad he was here. I was glad not to have to do this alone.
“Plenty
of daylight left,” I said with a bright smile that wasn't even
close to what I felt. “We should make best use of it.”
So we
secured our packs and set off together into the unknown.
#
“You
could still go back,” I offered after we had walked a while.
He'd
listened to my vague plans and offered little in return, save obvious
talk of food security. We would soon enough have to think about that.
By preference we would succeed in foraging before our meager supplies
ran low.
Then we
had lapsed into silence. I counted pylons as we walked along the
clear lane they were the focus of. I was curious about what kind of
Automatics would ply the route to do the job of pushing back the
forest, but it was idle curiosity. The Automatics did what they did
uninfluenced by us. What difference if I saw them or not? I counted
the pylons to keep a record of how far we had come. Ten pylons to the
kilometer. Forty two so far.
He shook
his head and looked back the way we had come before answering. “Well,
I wasn't given kit, you know.”
I
shrugged. “It won't matter. I mean, the Storeman might order a
beating but no one is going to kill you for petty theft.”
He pulled
a face, half grimace; half frown and shot me a sideways look, judging
my mood. “Well, some of the things I wanted weren't on the list of
issued equipment for colonists.”
That's
what they called us. Colonists. Go out into the world and found a
colony.
Yeah.
Alone. It was a fiction. Go away and stop eating our food. That was
the truth. Your extra mouth to feed is not needed.
It was
made abundantly clear in the crèche as soon as you could walk and
talk. The older kids would tell you. Practice, get good at something,
be ready to compete in your sixteenth year and win a place or be cast
out into the wilds.
I let the
comment stand for a while and turned it over in my mind. “You stole
restricted items.” It was a flat statement, not in any way a
question, and I sounded as angry as I was. He hadn't thought it
through. He never did.
“Well, I
had time to prepare once I decided I was going to go. It's not like I
waited for my birthday and hoped. A colonist pack was easy, of
course. Hell, Admin' give you one anytime if you want to go
voluntarily. It's not like they are guarded. But the other stuff took
time to locate, figure out a way to get in, pin it down so I could do
it all in just a few hours before I left so they wouldn't notice and
close things down until they were found.”
“But
they will notice,” I was still angry but holding it tight.
He
shrugged. “Handgun and ammo, field glasses, a Medikit each, a few
other things. Yeah, I guess they will miss them.”
Restricted
didn't just mean restricted to who could have them, the
Administrators and Security Guards. Restricted also meant rare. Items
the Automatics didn't deliver. Irreplaceable things.
“They
are going to come after us!” I exploded.